Anyway, now that we've established I don't give a fuck about Valentine's Day... This brings me to my next point: I wanted to write at least one post about V Day, but I wanted it to be be more interesting than the average post about such terrible day. So what to write about? To be honest with you I still don't know. I never REALLY know what I'm gonna write about until I'm writing it. I only have a mere spec of an idea and perhaps a theme in mind and everything else expands naturally as my main point develops out of no where.
So I suggest you tag along with me on this journey of uncertainty....
I titled this post "All My Fragile Strength Is Gone" because it's lyrics to a song called Gravity by Sara Bareilles. Most of you probably know her for the hit "Love Song." I honestly love both songs, but Gravity was never released as a single so I didn't hear it every five seconds wherever I went. And the fact that most people don't know about it, makes it feel much more personal to me. Like Gravity is my little secret. And it was.
Until recently, that song meant a lot to me. It just triggered such strong and uncontrollable emotions of saddens and sorrow. It's funny how music has that effect. It's both a grand and scary feeling to know that something created by a complete stranger could have such a hold on you.
It's probably my fault for listening to the song so much during a specific point in my life and because of that, each time I heard it... I was taken right back to that place in my mind. I mean, the song even went so far as to make me feel like I was physically somewhere else.
A few days ago... I was busy downloading music and I remembered to download Gravity because it's such a gorgeous song and my iTunes simply cannot be complete without it. As I listen to it, I'm again so impressed with the melody but something is missing. I don't know what it is, but something is different. Something sounds... Off.
It took me a moment to figure it out, but it certainly was not the song. It was me. While the song was just as beautiful as it's always been... I just didn't feel anything anymore. Now, I'm not for certain why. I've drawn no other conclusion than I'm simply past that point of my life. Past the place Gravity always brought me back to. So far past it, that nothing can take me back there. It's amazing, the affect just a few lyrics, a melody, and some instruments can have on us. But it's honestly more awing when they help you realize something you were to busy to notice.
Well... I guess this had nothing to do with Valentine's Day afterall (in someways that are less obvious, it did). Oh well. I did enjoy the freeflow of writing this post. I feel sort of refreshed so I do believe it served its purpose particularly well.
But my point is, music is amazingly strong and I will always have a special appreciation for the art in my heart (sorry, I didn't mean to rhyme). But I'll also always have a special appreciation for this song in particular... And several others that have a similar impact. Perhaps this post makes you think of songs that mean just as much to you. I hope so.
And I'll probably listen to this song tomorrow.
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